my head rolls over mountains.
i have to reach you.
so high in the clouds,
dancing with the gods.
hold me as you would aphrodite
so maybe i can feel you want me.
don’t play like i never asked you to stay
like i never begged you to stay.
never fell through the floor
while trying to find the strength
to pray on my knees.
i never had you
no matter what you tell me.
you were never mine to hold.
i never owned your heart.
what am i but a shadow?
just passing through the light at noon.
seeping down the sycamore trees,
so how should i know the breeze?
i cannot express the sorrow i feel.
i have so much heart in me
and no way to communicate it.
my love is anger,
you are my hell.
i want to cry
but i can’t find the right time.
not now. not with everyone around.
they’d come asking the matter
and i’d say it was the earth’s constant rotation.
first they’d smile,
then walk away head in tail.
they don’t understand severity.
the heaviness that swallows me whole.
i am alone in this universe,
crumbing into the moon’s craters.
won’t you please save me this time?
i can feel the staleness in the air.
everything is put on hold while you’re gone.
im not a person and you are not anything.
you are my foot falling through the air,
as i take one step too many up the stair.
a quick trip and a fright,
i realize it was all my fault
for getting ahead of myself.
you are the butterflies
stomping in my stomach.
no matter how much i drink,
you are still thumping around
waiting for me to scream you out.
you are a hundred, million, brazillion miles from me.
my mind is stretched to its limit.
it is always me.
it is always only me.
me against the world.
me against the rain.
i am always the one whimpering in bed.
torturous expectations lead me to the casket.
its always me for dead.